oh dear...

It's only 4AM, and I already want to delete this.

I think it's stupid. I don't know why. Maybe it's just because I'm tired?

Maybe I don't want to change. I know that's bullshit...

I've already changed so much, and my reason for that is Britt.

Now I feel that if I don't change, I'm going to lose him.

I was how he wants me to be now, until he started changing into an ass.

I turned all depressive and unmotivated and worthless...

I don't know what's going on.. I need my medication.

I want to think clearly again, and see that everything will be okay, and I won't lose Britt.

I'm going to make a list of things that made me happy yesterday.

That might help me get back into a good mindset.